I can't remember when I made this blog, but it must've been over a year ago. I probably did it impulsively, one of those nights when I was procrastinating and wanting to be part of an online journal.
Coincidentally, I realized that I remembered the URL and actually wanted to get back to this thing just a few days away from my 18th birthday.
Graduation is just a few weeks away and move in day for college is less than a hundred days away and quite frankly I'm at a loss. I'm beyond excited. Having the privledge to go to college these days is really awesome for me. I'm not going into the world without a buffer and I'm not immediately marrying into something I'm not sure I want.
Still, the haze with which I see the future is only partially exciting. Maybe it's a defense mechanism; I can't be disappointd about the way that my life unfolds if I don't have too many expectations. I just wish I had a clearer idea of where I'll be -- location wise -- and who I'll be with.
Today was relatively nice. In the morning I had my final Exhibition presentation in high school and did it in Psychology. I gotta work on my obvious nervousness and learn ways to steady my voice, it's really rather embarrassing to stand up there and talk about something I am passionate about but be unable to appear comfortable.
Then I ate lunch with some friends, went home and took a myriad of pills to quell this strange allergy-induced sinus issue and took a nap. I'm packing for a trip to New Hampshire to visit my friend, so I'm so beyond excited to spend my 18th birthday with her and her family!
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